[Blind Gossip] Sometimes celebrities take a break from social media. Their comeback is usually accompanied by an explanation of why they needed to take a break or just a simple, “Hey! I’m back!”
Actress Evangeline Lilly – best known for Lost and Ant Man – has done something completely different.
She has done a 180 on her social media posts. She went from smiling to… well, we don’t know what’s going on.
She shaved her head for some unknown reason.
Then, a few days ago, she went on a rant against “government surveillance” and how she was scared of being “erased” by “facial recognition technology.”
Then she followed up that diatribe with some sad photos and a lengthy post about darkness and trauma that is now getting a lot of attention.
I had such a rough year last year but I didn’t want to share all of it with you because i didn’t want to be a dark cloud in your world. All I’ve ever wanted to do was put joy in the world. To add sunshine. I didn’t want you to be having a perfectly good day and then have my post make you sad. But I struggle deeply with feeling that all I ever am is what I feel everyone else wants and needs me to be. I often feel alone and unseen.
I have always known I was strong. Strong enough, I believed, to hold all my pain and everyone else’s also. So I kept it all inside, kept it to myself, and made space in there to hold your pain, too. Publicly, I hid and made light of my deepest traumas and laughed in the face of my most profound pain.
She certainly wouldn’t be the first person to curate her life for social media users.
Until, last year, I broke. Suddenly I was forced to face my weakness and my limitations, my trauma and fears. I was left with no choice but to accept that I am limited or…carry on down a road of perfectionist denial that would inevitably kill me.
Trauma? Pain? Kill me? That’s some very frightening language. Is this a cry for help?
I am coming out of that deep place, slowly. As I start to breathe the fresh air, as I start to find my new, limited footing, I feel disconnected from you. I feel it’s pointless to share the light when you don’t know my darkness. I feel lost and apathetic about this space we share.
But I ask myself…would you have wanted to come along in my darkness had I shared it?
Using social media to post sad photos and use frightening language and look for sympathy from millions of strangers is a mysterious and interesting choice.
I’m happy! I’m sad! I’m public! I’m private!
It’s like a weird episode of Lost. We’re alive! We’re dead!
She’s posting about it, so she obviously wants people to talk about her. So, let’s talk about her.
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What happened/what’s going on with her?
[Optional] Do you keep your social media public or private?